Today’s Topic is Keep it to Yourself. The entire prompt is the following:
Many of us share lots of aspects of our diabetes lives online for the world to see. What are some of the aspects of diabetes that you choose to keep private from the internet? Or from your family and friends? Why is it important to keep it to yourself? (This is not an attempt to get you out of your comfort zone. There is no need to elaborate or tell personal stories related to these aspects. Simply let us know what kinds of stories we will never hear you tell, and why you won’t tell them.)
I think of myself as a pretty open book, so it took a little thinking for this. This thinking lead me to realize that while I consider myself an open book, there’s actually a lot of things I don’t share. It happens to be that most aren’t diabetes related.
But I thought a little harder down the diabetes route and realized that one of the things I do not share with people is my real time blood sugars. This is something I wont share in real life, but would probably share at the drop of a hat if someone asked online. Probably because online is slightly disconnected from real life.
I think this came to be from an experience when I was younger. For those who know me well, there are some things that over time become a “tell” about what my blood sugar is. These “tells” tend to be related to my mood and temper. I don’t remember now if I told these friends, or if they figured it out themselves, but blood sugar can have an effect on my mood. There came a time where I was acting in the “right way”, and of course, my friends were bugging me about it being related to my blood sugar being low. This was absolutely not the case and my mood/actions etc. were due to something they had done. Of course trying to explain that doesn’t go well when you’re already annoyed at whatever it was they did.
Therefore, because my blood sugar being related to my mood was used against me once, I now just won’t tell anyone what my blood sugar is, therefore making it harder for them to ever connect it to anything.
Basically, it boils down to not wanting to be judged by my blood sugar, but judged like a normal person. Whether they are right that my blood sugar is screwing with my mood or not.
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